I seem to have some serious issues in the area of building and maintaining relationships. I often think to myself: “what’s the point? I should just give up”, as I see the same things happening to me over and over again.

I usually am a lot more eloquent than this and I try not to use onomatopoeia, but an exclamation of UGH really just kinda sums it all up at this moment, followed by a gesture of throwing my hands up in the air in frustration and helplessness.

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Christ is Risen

I could feel the flush in my face and the sweat beading on my forehead as my legs ached with a sort of half-memory of what they once could do.

It’s been difficult getting my fitness back up to where it was, pre-injury, mostly because of the frustration. My warm-up used to be a brisk 5 mile jog, and now it had become my goal not to stop running until I hit that distance, no matter how much everything hurt. I remembered how far I could run and I remembered how it should’ve felt, but nothing was the way it was supposed to be.

Every breath was already a desperate gasp for air when I heard a small voice in my ear: “Sing something.” Even as I thought, “how the frick am I supposed to do that”, I could hear, in my head, a song that I once knew very well, but the memory was so distant now I could hardly remember the chorus and bridge:

Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake
Come and rise up from the grave

And oh, death, where is your sting?
And oh, hell, where is your victory?
And oh, church, come stand in the light
Our God is not dead, he’s alive, he’s alive

It was not music at first as I forced out a syllable with each exhalation. I continued to obey even as I told myself I was wasting precious air and energy.

I was still pounding the pavement when I realized that I was no longer grunting the words, but actually sustaining entire phrases with each breath. There was a feeling of freedom as my legs automatically increased their pace, the faint memory now becoming reality once more.

It was no longer my weak body supporting me, but the Spirit, blessing my run.

And of course, that’s the best kind of run there is.

You found Me on this special day, He whispered, and I won’t ever forsake you.

I was bent over my dinner, getting ready to chow down, when I was halted by a familiar, quiet voice which said simply, “I am enough.” I didn’t know how to respond, except to say, “I know that, but my heart tells me it’s not so.”

After being led astray for so long, it’s difficult to make the trek back to the proper path, as every step has to be retraced. I’m not ready for that first step.

For tonight, I think I’ll just turn around and survey the journey that has to be made.

beawilderment:

he’s making it hop

(Source: -everdeen, via viviano)

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legitfitneverquits:

littlemissmollymormon:

I don’t go running because I want to be thin.

I go running because

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you

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never

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know

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who’s

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going to

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show up

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and tell you

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this is literally my favorite running post of all time. hands down.

(via doctorwho)

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I miss my training partner.

He’s got a horrible case of peroneal tendonitis in his left foot, and I’ve been training without him for a week already. I’ve been trying to keep myself occupied, especially on my long runs, with podcasts and music, but it still sucks because none of that comes close to conversing with an actual person.

My weekly mileage has decreased in the one week that I’ve been running alone, and my energy levels are constantly low, even though I’ve been keeping up with all the important things like nutrition and sleeping enough and stretching. I tried to force myself to go the miles I had planned for the day, even though my body was telling me not to, and busted up both knees yesterday, and now I’ve got to take an extra rest day, which is sorta just adding to the frustration.

This brings me to a really strange realization, which is that, as much as I love being by myself and as much as I call myself an introvert, I still need a community of runners to stay on track, even if my community consists of just one person.

…which then brings me to another problem, which is that I’ve yet to find and settle into a community with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. Uh, I guess I’ll take this as a bit of gentle nudging that I really really really need to find a solution to get past my inability to get to church.

Crap. I guess it wouldn’t hurt to ask for a few prayers from the few of you reading - for his foot, my knees, and this lack of community issue?

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joyfulldreams:

missambear:

A world clock that reveals the time as you rotate it. 
Function.

DUDE. MOST INGENIOUSLY SIMPLE FUCKING THING EVER

joyfulldreams:

missambear:

A world clock that reveals the time as you rotate it. 

Function.

DUDE. MOST INGENIOUSLY SIMPLE FUCKING THING EVER

(Source: departurelane, via fuckyeahgifs)

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It’s been three years.

A lot has changed, but you’ll be amused to hear that my left ear piecing still gives me a lot of trouble and that I still like airplanes. I’m still a lightweight, but I can drink a lot more than I used to. I still hate spiders, probably more so than you’d remember.

I graduated from college and now I’m teaching and earning lots of money. I’m letting my hair grow out, and I’m going to donate it once it gets really long. No more short hair, and it was too expensive to keep it that way all the time, anyways.

You’d be really proud of me for this - I got my driver’s license and a car, and now I understand exactly why you pamper your car. I do exactly the same thing.

Oh yeah, and I’m training for a marathon. You’d shake your head and laugh at me for exercising so much. You’d call me crazy.

But then you’d get that look on your face, like you’re proud of me. Next chance you got, you’d be bragging to all your coworkers about how you have a friend that’s gonna run 26.2 miles in one go and live to tell the tale.

Maybe I am crazy, because when I think of how you’d react, I can actually hear you laugh. I can hear you telling me that I’m nuts. I can see how proud you are of me.

It’s been too long, my friend.

I miss you dearly and I will see you soon.

reapershadcat:

monumentofallyoursins:

bluegallifreyan:

mariuspontmerryxmas:

armedforceslove:

WHAT IS THAT

whaaaaat is that

witchcraft

THAT’S HOW THEY MAKE CAMO???????

hydrographics/water transfer printing!! They take a design and float it on top of water, so they can dip 3D objects so they get the graphic on all edges.

reapershadcat:

monumentofallyoursins:

bluegallifreyan:

mariuspontmerryxmas:

armedforceslove:

WHAT IS THAT

whaaaaat is that

witchcraft

THAT’S HOW THEY MAKE CAMO???????

hydrographics/water transfer printing!! They take a design and float it on top of water, so they can dip 3D objects so they get the graphic on all edges.

(Source: 12-gauge-rage, via viviano)

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Boo Hoo

I have developed a stress fracture in my left tibia.

I wasn’t even aware that such things existed, but it’s apparently one of the most troubling injuries a runner can sustain. I should’ve expected it, as I possess many risk factors that lead to low bone density.

I’ve just about stopped all weight-bearing activity other than essential ones, such as walking, and started cross training with swimming and cycling, which are more low-impact. I’m adjusting my nutrition so that I take in more calcium and vitamin D.

I have a 10k in November and hopefully 4 weeks of less weight-bearing will be enough to heal the fracture.

Darn, things were going so well. Oh well, at least I caught it early and don’t have to wait over 12 weeks for it to heal. If anything, I can just walk the 10k with compression leggings and pray it’s enough. Runner life?

The past few weeks, as I have been running in preparation for the Color Run, I’ve been mulling over what some might think is an insane thought.

I stuck my head into my cousin’s room, took a deep breath, and said “what do you think about you and me running the LA Marathon in March?”

He paused for a second before responding: “I guess, but it’s going to be really difficult.”

So, um, in other words, I’m going to run a full marathon in about 143 days.

The plan is simple: to slowly work my way up to running all 26.2 miles. First we have the 5k this month, then a 10k in November, then a half marathon in December or January, depending on whichever works best for my schedule.

It’s a crazy goal and it’s going to be crazy hard, but I can do this!

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9gag:

What kind of fish?

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9gag:

Scumbag Doctors

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Running Shenanigans

I’ve been training, for almost a week now, for a 5k in October.

Running is…pretty brutal. In just one week, I have had to overcome old injuries, shin splints, and an injured tendon. Thankfully, I have a wonderfully encouraging running partner/trainer who is fabulously more knowledgeable about long distance running than any of my coaches in high school. Amazingly enough, all those old injuries that previously had halted any of my further attempts to run on a regular basis are now manageable.

On Monday, I did 2 miles of mostly walking, some sprinting, and just a bit of jogging. Today is Friday, and I have managed to work my way up to being able to run over 1.5 miles without stopping, and it felt great.

I have noticed that, after my warm-up walk, that the first 5 minutes are just horrible. The longer my warm-up walk, the less painful those first few moments are. If I start walking instead, because of the pain, it goes away but returns once I start running again. If I muscle through it, it goes away after a while, and then I feel like I could run forever.

The human body is just so interesting! I looked up why this might be, and it turns out, it’s because the blood is not flowing quickly enough yet. The blood vessels have to dilate, and your heart rate has to go up. Once this process starts moving along the blood and oxygen goes to your muscles, then the tiredness goes away, and then you enter the groove where everything is working smoothly.

I always wondered why I saw people running before a race. I thought they were crazy not to conserve their energy. Then again, I was in high school at the time and I was much more resilient. Now I know!

The way a human body works is so cool! IT’S SCIENCE!

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