December 2010
Me: I miss being with him and I’m constantly thinking about him and pining over him. I feel so pathetic.
James: No don’t feel pathetic! God probably made things that way so that we wouldn’t take love lightly, you know?
James Moore…I think you are an angel sent to watch over me. An angel sent to watch over an angel - HA!
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Improvement
It’s the end of the year and all…so I suppose I should just create a list of every single important thing that has happened to or influenced me this year, since I find that I’m disgustingly into the nostalgic kind of stuff.
Spring 2010: Mendelssohn Piano Trio No. 2 with Aaron and Olivia…this was when I began to realize that chamber music was actually kinda cool.
End of...
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AHH!!!
Tron! Daft Punk!! AHHHHHHH DAFT PUNK!!!! ♥ OH MY GOSH I THINK I’M IN LUUUUUUURRRVVEEEE! ♥ ♥ ♥
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Freedom
At last. Tomorrow morning. I can already smell it and the thought of absolute freedom…oh the possibilities. I can’t wait!
5 things! (taken from Jake!)
5 Facts about yourself:
I steal 3D glasses from movie theaters.
I’m lactose-intolerant and I love ice cream and milkshakes.
I’ve had a Neopets account since I was in the 4th grade and I still use it today.
I could eat black beans on rice all day, except that beans make me burp excessively.
Whenever I see the word “pens”, my brain automatically adds an “i”...
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Improvement
It’s the end of the year and all…so I suppose I should just create a list of every single important thing that has happened to or influenced me this year, since I find that I’m disgustingly into the nostalgic kind of stuff.
Spring 2010: Mendelssohn Piano Trio No. 2 with Aaron and Olivia…this was when I began to realize that chamber music was actually kinda cool.
End of...
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Numbness
Death is a part of life - you take that risk knowingly when you live.
I just wish that death were more fair sometimes. Give everyone a chance to live, and everyone else a chance to enjoy that person, before you just whisk them away.
I’m expecting him to call me at any moment and laugh and say “I fooled you all suckers!” But as much as I cry and pray and pinch myself and will...
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Aftermath
My laundry is done and drying, my leg has been smothered in anti-itch cream, and I’m squeaky clean and fantabulously more well-dressed than I have been in the past week.
A visit to the practice rooms for some happy-time has been long overdue! HELLO AGAIN PIANO! How I’ve missed you so!
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Ugh
Well the inevitable has happened, as I knew it would. I did try to push this day as far back as possible but here it is anyways…
I now want what I know for sure I can’t have, and even if there were a slight possibility of me getting what I want, well, time is running out.
BLAH. BLAH BLAH BLAH. So I’ll just do what I always do - retreat into practicing and music and hope that...
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Winter Break
Almost a month without another musician by my side. I’ve become so accustomed to playing with other people that I’ve almost forgotten what it’s like to perform by myself.
It’s gonna be a long and lonely break.
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Performance!!!
AHHH. I’M ON SUCH A HIGH RIGHT NOW.
Looks like our performance today sat well with the audience. Yes, we both had our fair share of mistakes, but we’ve improved since the last time we performed! - and that’s all that matters right now. There will be more amazing concerts to come and each time, I’m sure we’re gonna improve.
My dad really liked the performance, and...
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Picture-Perfect
I’ve rediscovered my love for taking photos. I love memories…gonna start using my XTi more and probably gonna get a point-and-shoot as well. :)
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Confusion No More!
It seems like a lot of things have been cleared up today. I dropped my engineering degree and I actually never felt more free to play the piano - no more confusion there. I’m so sure I didn’t make the wrong choice now that I’m able to practice as much as I wish. It feels so right, like I was holding myself back for two years, and now I’m letting myself go free.
It also...
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AND TUMBLR IS BACK ONLINE
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“College women can smell ignorance…like dog shit.”
– Joel Goodson, Risky Business
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Oh the Pressure!
Today I woke up at 7:30, brushed my teeth and cleaned my sockets with mouthwash, and biked 11 miles to my oral surgeon’s office to be numbed and cut open again so that the pus in my socket can drain out. This relieves the pressure in my gums and allows me to be mostly pain-free (minus the pain of getting my gums cut open and resewn every few days) until the pressure builds up again.
It was...
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What is going on?
This is the moment balanced at the tip of the sword. Things are moving too fast and I can’t get my bearings. There are new people in my life and new relationships forming. One moment I know what I want and the next I lose sight of what I thought I wanted.
I can feel myself changing and I’m scared and lost, but I’m also excited for what could come out of this. It’s like I...
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WatchWoke up early and decided to watch Glee before class…this is what I was rewarded with <3
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Today was...
exceptional. Rehearsal was absolutely amazing and I really enjoyed myself. Class was actually fun and interesting. My mouth has recovered enough so that I can tap without pain again and oh boy did I rock the dance floor in class today! Rent and utilities has been sorted out and dealt with. Bike wheels have been pumped, chains and gears have been oiled, entire bike has been wiped down and cleaned....
